If...

Life is endowed with innumerable things to learn from the experiences that come face to face with an individual, in due course of this journey from birth to death. love is one of the purest feelings that one comes across while treading along this path. According to me, it s an emotion that enthralls life with all the happiness that one aspires for. It lives beyond mortal death and that's how man becomes immortal.

My life brought in a feeling as pure as this, when I'd begun a new phase of my life at my Junior College. Life seemed to have achieved all that's required to make to enjoy bliss. I often wondered,"If i had not been gifted with Love, life would wouldn't have been as beautiful as it is today." Time proceeded with love and everything seemed perfect. Then came a 'Tsunami' in our lives, which left everything devastated. Everything seemed to have lost its identity. I didn't possess a heart anymore. life had lost its soul. The remnant were shattered pieces of a feeling as eternal as Love.

My mind always told me thereon,"If I hadn't fallen for it, I wouldn't have been killed." Trust seemed to find no room in my life for anyone. I still remember the tear that rolled out, it reminds me that it is next to impossible to find Love. I was reluctant to face myself after having met with betrayal in love. My life seemed to have lost. I trembled without my soul. The fiasco in love changed me, perhaps both for the good and bad. i could not shelter my feelings anywhere. Today, after 6 months and 21 days of my death, the tears beg for mercy. My long lost soul cries out, day and night, "Get me back to my life"...It sends its message in the form of tears that pour out every night. My body is an alive corpse. The scars will last forever. I'll never forget the time when I met defeat in sustaining Love.

I often wonder,"Why was I punished for a mistake which I never committed?"'Betrayal', is something I've experienced earlier in my journey. Tasting dust after the betrayal in love has eroded the feelings that I held for love once upon a time. I fear to secure my faith in anyone. No one, has witnessed my tears. I'm happy for that 'coz they would have realised that I'm hollow from within, which I'd never want to happen. The world seems to make me aware that finding True Love is the biggest challenges in life. And sustaining it beyond perfection is a tougher struggle. today, I satisfy my long lost soul by realising that,"If I hadn't fallen down, how would I ever realise that Life is not an easy game to play?", My tears cry for what happened in the past. But, if it hadn't occurred, i would have never learnt that,"One has to sail life's boat along with the waves of time to reach the shore of happiness". I'm happy life has hewn out the maturity and wisdom that hid itself in the small temple of my long lost isolated soul. It continues to cry, tears find their way out and each time it helps me learn something new to live life in a better way.

Well, as a matter of fact, my broken heart can never be mended. But, It'll continue to live life 'coz I know someday things will change for the better. Perhaps, the emotion that I once held of Love shall rejuvenate and bring my soul back, if and only if the times change. But still, even today I wonder,"If ......my boat had toppled over, I wouldn't have ever learnt the mystery of Love and its meaning. Perhaps life would have been different".

Avec beaucoup d'amour~Akansha....